good-bad-eitherway-night

i want to go to sleep but laying in bed is haunting

I can't let this define me

it can only shape me

the passing glimpse of a red whisper in your life

i have a heavy conscious

a weary pocket full of disdain

it's fucking killing me

one

day

at

a

time

deranged

Imma shake you off though

Get up on that horse and

Ride into the sunset

Look back with no remorse

the good times are killing me

there's been a lot of seafoam pillow talk

the restless nights

my mind longs for sleep from this nightmare

i'm on unfamiliar pavement that feels like home

the most intimate moments are with my clothes off

breast as canvas

revealing the imperfections i've drawn out into the wild

and the flowing feeling of anticipation runs through my veins

the manic sense of today i can't contain it until tomorrow

i am rocked by your words

i am shocked through your experiences

argumentative towards my inner self

i dont want to get off the road

i want to go faster

i feel alive

like i'm constantly bleeding

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